Part 1: "Why am I like this?!" Her despair continued into her idol era. How Maki Itoh discovered her wrestling way of life. (2ページ目)

Up until 4th grade she says she figures she "was liked well enough", but then after that she felt like the atmosphere began to darken. However, as she was still basking in attention, she began to become full of herself. She says "When they'd tease me, that would boost my self-esteem."

photo by Yuba Hayashiこの記事に関連する写真を見るShe wanted to be famous. She wanted to get famous, be rich, and throw it back in the face of everyone who bullied her. She liked to draw, and thought she'd like to be a manga artist. During school breaks, she would single-mindedly focus on things like her drawing to try and develop original stories. At least during those times, she could be her unusual self.

When she moved up to junior high, there was a boy she liked. She would get too embarrassed to talk to him face to face, so she spent loads of time drawing him. She wanted to spend even just a little bit of time together, so she went to the same cram school. One day, she found out he was a fan of AKB48's Yuki Kashiwagi. She heard him say "I want to marry Yuki Kashiwagi" and thought if she became an idol he'd want to marry her instead.

In senior high she began auditioning to become an idol, and in July 2011 she joined the group LinQ as a second generation member. However she didn't get popular at all, to the point where she couldn't even appear in their concerts. She became a total shut-in, and couldn't get out of bed in the morning. Unable to avoid the need to pass classes in school, she dropped out.

"While the other girls got popular and got solo parts and stuff, I couldn't get anything like that.... And because of that I couldn't like myself any more, or maybe like, I started to always criticize myself. I'd wonder "Why the hell am I like this?!". I would have been okay if I had still been capable of just trying my best at least, but I just felt too low. That's just what depression makes you feel like all the time."

That was when she happened to come across pro wrestling. On August 13th 2013 she was a special guest at DDT's Ryogoku Sumo Hall show and got to headbutt the president Sanshiro Takagi, which became a hot topic. This was despite her not knowing the first thing about pro wrestling. However, what she did understand was her ability to move people through wrestling. She thought she was probably well suited to become a pro wrestler.